Czille

Something Lost

Say, I was also in this time of life when I was supposedly engaged for the wrong reasons and then it crumbled. I decided then that I don’t want to become part of the problem of the one who got himself confused and told him that I just want to be one of the greatest memories of his life. It was when I decided to face whatever possibilities that may come my way thereafter. I prayed, yes I did. I tried to look again in the eyes of the Lord like I did when I was a little child and wondered how has it been through the years (those long years haven’t been so bright all throughout but they have been colorful indeed). I didn’t pray what I want to happen. I just uttered that whatever God decides what is best for me, and everything became so much lighter and easy. I know I wasn’t the greatest faithful servant, but I still know I still am greatly favored by Him.

And then, I did consciously made an effort to spend some considerable time online. But I was careful and still wary of the many lures of the undesirable kind. I also came into contact with long lost friends and created new ones. Heartbreak wasn’t so bad at all.

Same Boat

Incidentally, this former classmate was also doing the same effort while undergoing similar tribulation and invited me in her friendster life. Angie was just simply happy to see me and my "transformation" from an ugly duckling into…well look at her testimonial for me.

The Tides Began to Turn

Then the unexpected began to unfold… It wasn’t very dramatic in the beginning, yet it also didn’t took so long before Angie suddenly turned from a long lost classmate into the most avid matchmaker of all time in my life. Wait a minute, I felt the urge to hold the reins on her for she was almost hysterical when she expressed how her bestfriend Stan came to notice my profile. (Is this right? Do I really deserve that kind of attention? And so I was skeptical at first)

Winds of Change

Gradually, I came to know Angie once more as a totally different person — more experienced, tougher, with more substance, with more courage to take risks and discover more of herself. Like I told her that I can only remember her as that high school girl who powders her nose and brushes her hair as often as she talks with her cliques. Time indeed has its magical ways of sculpting the lives of people.

And then I found myself taking her calls and texting her much more often than I texted or called my ex. She opened herself to me just like an old friend, and I also warmed up to her. She showed me how a superwoman operates these days. Yet the most amazing thing was when she became the very eager bridge to connect my life to that of her dearest best friend Stan. (Is this correct? I did felt the pressure and I thought I need to breath enough air. =))

Serendipity

If this is by grace that these things happened, then what else can we call it? Coincidence? Out of the chaos, rubbles, and heartbreak, a new form of hope emerged, like a raging phoenix — fiery, promising, wanting to break free.

Angie found a new strength in herself, another accidental confidant in me, and an unexpected talent in matchmaking.

I also found unwittingly a pseudo soulmate for her personal events seem to mirror mine, a rabid textmate, an enthusiastic phone pal, and an unnerving matchmaker. Before I acknowledged to myself that I was giddy and outrageously happy, Angie was already on her way to the skies to fetch the moon and stars for us.

Finders Keepers

Ahh well, what now? Something lost, something found. We three found in each other in this most unexpected time when things haven’t been so rosy and bright. And it appears that Stan now served as the anchor for two women when our lives seem to spin in the same dizzying wobbly fashion. Angie too is also the vital link that feeds my connection with Stan. And I, what have I done? I guess I just did what I think and feel what is best, to justify my worth to deserve the blessings bestowed.

The future is yet to come. There are still a lot of uncertainties along the way. Only by faith that we can get through it all. And I believe we started just right, and I intend to keep the newly found connection smooth, beautiful and interesting. There is a lifetime to behold, for better or for worse.