expected the unexpected
Something Lost
Say, I was also in this time of life when I was supposedly engaged for the wrong reasons and then it crumbled. I decided then that I don’t want to become part of the problem of the one who got himself confused and told him that I just want to be one of the greatest memories of his life. It was when I decided to face whatever possibilities that may come my way thereafter. I prayed, yes I did. I tried to look again in the eyes of the Lord like I did when I was a little child and wondered how has it been through the years (those long years haven’t been so bright all throughout but they have been colorful indeed). I didn’t pray what I want to happen. I just uttered that whatever God decides what is best for me, and everything became so much lighter and easy. I know I wasn’t the greatest faithful servant, but I still know I still am greatly favored by Him.
And then, I did consciously made an effort to spend some considerable time online. But I was careful and still wary of the many lures of the undesirable kind. I also came into contact with long lost friends and created new ones. Heartbreak wasn’t so bad at all.
Same Boat
Incidentally, this former classmate was also doing the same effort while undergoing similar tribulation and invited me in her friendster life. Angie was just simply happy to see me and my "transformation" from an ugly duckling into…well look at her testimonial for me.
The Tides Began to Turn
Then the unexpected began to unfold… It wasn’t very dramatic in the beginning, yet it also didn’t took so long before Angie suddenly turned from a long lost classmate into the most avid matchmaker of all time in my life. Wait a minute, I felt the urge to hold the reins on her for she was almost hysterical when she expressed how her bestfriend Stan came to notice my profile. (Is this right? Do I really deserve that kind of attention? And so I was skeptical at first)
Winds of Change
Gradually, I came to know Angie once more as a totally different person — more experienced, tougher, with more substance, with more courage to take risks and discover more of herself. Like I told her that I can only remember her as that high school girl who powders her nose and brushes her hair as often as she talks with her cliques. Time indeed has its magical ways of sculpting the lives of people.
And then I found myself taking her calls and texting her much more often than I texted or called my ex. She opened herself to me just like an old friend, and I also warmed up to her. She showed me how a superwoman operates these days. Yet the most amazing thing was when she became the very eager bridge to connect my life to that of her dearest best friend Stan. (Is this correct? I did felt the pressure and I thought I need to breath enough air. =))
Serendipity
If this is by grace that these things happened, then what else can we call it? Coincidence? Out of the chaos, rubbles, and heartbreak, a new form of hope emerged, like a raging phoenix — fiery, promising, wanting to break free.
Angie found a new strength in herself, another accidental confidant in me, and an unexpected talent in matchmaking.
I also found unwittingly a pseudo soulmate for her personal events seem to mirror mine, a rabid textmate, an enthusiastic phone pal, and an unnerving matchmaker. Before I acknowledged to myself that I was giddy and outrageously happy, Angie was already on her way to the skies to fetch the moon and stars for us.
Finders Keepers
Ahh well, what now? Something lost, something found. We three found in each other in this most unexpected time when things haven’t been so rosy and bright. And it appears that Stan now served as the anchor for two women when our lives seem to spin in the same dizzying wobbly fashion. Angie too is also the vital link that feeds my connection with Stan. And I, what have I done? I guess I just did what I think and feel what is best, to justify my worth to deserve the blessings bestowed.
The future is yet to come. There are still a lot of uncertainties along the way. Only by faith that we can get through it all. And I believe we started just right, and I intend to keep the newly found connection smooth, beautiful and interesting. There is a lifetime to behold, for better or for worse.
June 4th, 2007 at 4:10 am
Uh-oh, I still don’t know what to say, I was sipping my fave coffee(which is a daily dose to sustain my killer sched), I almost choke, Teary-eyed again,I was moved.I didn’t realized that I made you happy and inspired, and that it is an achievement for me if you said so.Only God knows how he did it… the winds of change, it may be turbulent, I could say I am now less afraid to sail by it, because I know that God continues to bless me with people I can turn to, and that includes you. Very funny to remember our trandformation..yeah, we’re so different in highscool, me being too spoiled to be a brat, and you being so engrossed with your sketches and all. Little did we know that after long years, and after being caught in the same situation,a totally different personality in us arise..Well, all I could say,continue blogging,hehehe you know, love can just be blind sometimes, but it doesn’t have to be dumb.Carry on Czille! I’m proud of what you have become today and as you have found your new love, I want to say these things;
Let there be spaces in your togethernes, and let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another, but make not a bond of love;let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.Fill each other’s cup but drink not from one cup, sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone. give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping, for only the hand of God can contain your hearts,and stand together yet not too near together, for the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other’s shadow.Love is special, an intense connection, no one can make you both happy but God being the center of your relationship.
Ngek! i don’t wanna sound so deep again, just sail on..